Ever since I was young, I was fascinated by the camera. My eyes would light up when I saw the device, interested in how one button made it work. I remember holding it in my hands and looking at the shutter open and close and staring at my reflection in the lens. The camera was so small, but it held the world inside of it. The moments it captured were everlasting, permanently retained for the rest of time.
I lost my dad when I was in the 11th grade, Somewhere inside of me felt uneasy with the change. Me, being the anxious and overly-conscientious person I am, I feared of losing every experience I had and saw the camera as a way to keep them.
For years the camera went everywhere with me. I used it to take pictures at my friends’ houses, birthday parties, events, and more. Looking back on the pictures now, they are cringe-worthy and a little awkward, showing the generation at the time slowly becoming the people they are today. But nonetheless, I love them so. They remind me of the childhood I had and those memories that reside within them.
At one point I started to wonder what else I could do with the camera. What were the boundaries I could push it to? This resulted in some great photos, However, this want for more pictures, more memories, and more ideas to be represented through an art form began my obsession and passion for photography.
Throughout my early twenties, I experimented with the basics: lighting, still life, and landscape photography. During this time I got my first big DSLR, a Nikon D7200. I eventually produced some things that were worth looking at. I carried that camera with me everywhere I went and it became a known staple for me. Photography was my place to go when I felt as though I needed to get away. It fed my wanderlust and gave me a reason to keep exploring.
After some years of me putting my camera down and picking it back up (due to a struggle with anxiety and depression) There were multiple adults that I looked up to that told me I was wasting my drive, my intelligence, and my potential, on something as simple and childlike as photography. Also in 2019 I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer it took my breath away and changed my life forever change the way I look at life I don't like to take things for granted and I try to spend as much time as I can with my loved ones and capture all the memories that I can with the ones I love and the people I care for and in God's wonderful creation and being able to capture the things that people may not be able to see but I get to be able to see because he puts it in front of me. But I’ll put it simply: I love photography. I love the power the camera has. It is like the missing puzzle piece for this day and age. It fills us in on things that we didn’t see before. It makes me feel alive. It surrounds us constantly (especially within our social media) even if people don’t realize it. It is a powerful device that is able to capture a moment of time within a split second, and if that thought doesn’t create a shiver down your spine, I don’t know what will.
I don’t know where my journey will take me or where I'll end up, but I know my camera will be in my hand the whole time, documenting the experience as I go.